I need to take the FIRST STEP

Don't trust the date stamp. I can change it to whatever I desire. I am actually three days behind. There were three examination papers and their marking schemes to set. There was a study group on Christology to attend, a deacon ordination celebration and another Diaconate aspirants spiritual formation gathering. However, I know  that if I do not take this first step to write down something, I will never be able to write anything. However again, that does not guarantee my finishing it. Now that I have started writing, naturally I will ask how I will finish. Will I tidy up all the details or will I leave this page unfinished?

This Sunday is the GAUDETE Sunday, the 3^rd Sunday of Advent. "Gaudete", which comes from the first word of the Introit at Mass, means "rejoice". The problem is, as a diabetic, I have to keep my emotion under control. I cannot allow myself to be over-agitated. The experience was terrible. I felt dizzy and nearly passed out one day when I argued with my mum over my moving to Tuen Mun after marriage.. It was my weakness. I always took things seriously and held them dearly to my heart. This was a price I had to pay if I continued to be that dead serious. Now, I am learning to let go and indulge myself a bit in some other distractions. Still, I must be careful. Therefore, I coolly ask myself in what I should rejoice. I cannot offer any quick answer.

It is now Friday, the last School Day for the term. I have been much exhausted rushing through the exam syllabus and finishing oral presentations with the S5 and S6 students. 6T has always been a difficult class and doing Ethics lessons with them is a real challenge. On one hand, I must respect their autonomy. On the other, there is so much about leading an upright life I want to share with them. However, we have communication problems, or put it in another way, we have a huge generation gap. My teaching style is not effective for them. Much of the time, I feel like speaking to stone walls. Of course, there are a handful of responsive students to cheer me up. I have to congratulate myself for being able to follow through these 18 months. After finishing all the oral presentations, I wished them a merry Christmas and a good public exam performance. I started picking up my things and prepared to leave. A student came up and would like to take a photo with me. Then, a few more came up as well. A warm current surged in my heart ...
Thank you students. I do not deserve this. I am just doing my part as a teacher.